I guess I started this post below last week...never posted it. I think I got too busy or Mckinley threw her lunch on the floor or something. She has become quite challenging (no need for "I told you so's") but it seems like sometimes that EVERYONE makes a comment about how "active" our child is. She tests my patience pretty much everyday and I sometimes wonder how in the world can I handle working from home (40 hours a week), handling a toddler who needs constant attention or she is coloring on the wall( herself, the couch, the dog), and then eventually, having another child at home.
**I started today with a goal of not using the word "no" to Mckinley. That goal got chucked out the window at 9:34 AM, as she dumped crushed up goldfish crackers all over my new leather ottoman. My patience has been super thin lately and I am really not sure why. Yes, she is a toddler--the phrase "Terrible Twos" is all too familiar but it is funny, I pray for patience and to be a better Mother and it seems like the Lord sends those tantrums and screaming fits as a "test".
I went and listened to Stephanie Nielson (nieniedialogues.blogspot.com) @ BYU last night. First off, that is one kooky place. Nerdy kids all over sporting their BYU blue- I hope the Aggs beat them! :) Second, I went with my sister-in-law, Marianne (who bless her heart is the Young Women's President) and a bunch of 16 year olds texting and rambling about Taylor Swift...wow was that agonizing ( is that what I have to look forward to?!?!?). Anyway, Stephanie was amazing. What an inspirational spirit. She just radiates- now, for reals, I am not just "drinking the Kool-aid" and on this kick....I have followed her blog for a long time and think she is really a great example of patience and the kind of mother I want to be.
Here it is 10:15- still have a few hours left to work, Mark was a dear and has mopped the floor and dusted the furniture...I have to give that man mad props too. He is super receptive to my Mt. Saint Helens breaking points. He comes home from a 12 hour day, takes Mc without complaint and let's me do my thing. I am sure I am not the easiest to live with most days but he really is my match and is able to talk me off the ledge.
Anyway- there you have it. A not so fluffy post and kind of a glimpse into the craziness of my life. So next time you see me, take a look at the cuticles- They are a pretty good judge of my stress level and right now, they resemble something close to ground beef.
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Hey I pray for patience ALL the time. Being a mom is hard work, but you are doing great!! Glad Mark is so great about letting you have your time. We all need a little time to ourselves to breathe so we don't go insane. Just wait until she's in school and then you have to deal with homework EVERYDAY!! That one is a killer.
You know, about every 4 months I have a "come to Jesus" moment (usually preceded by a major meltdown) about motherhood. I've been having them for about 2 1/2 years now (since the time sweet Sabrina turned 2), and I don't think they are ever going away. They are the times I remember: SERENITY NOW, let it go, it's nice to be clean...but it's more important to be nice, big picture, relax and breathe. Now you know all my montras. And remember: the video nanny is your friend during times like these. Good luck!
Oh, Miss Tisha. Glad to know you're human. The good news is...3is easier than 2; so you're only a year away from that with Mck. The bad news is...newborns are A LOT harder than 2 year olds. So when Baby Dos comes along (like ours will be doing shortly)...you're screwed.
If it's any consolation...which I really know it isn't...Motherhood is the most trying thing I've ever done. The most rewarding also! There were years when I was sure just getting through the day was my goal. Know that you are doing a wonderful job. McKinley is amazing and long, long, in the future she will tell you thanks! Love you all, call when you are near the edge! I know about the edge!
It is always nice to hear other moms go through everyday. As far as adding a new baby to the mix, it was hard at first but around 18 months it was actually way easier to have two, having three hasn't been as hard as I thought and apparently, according to my Mom, by the time you get to four you're just throwing another one on the pile. I think you're an awesome Mom.
Sorry! But I have to laugh! You were JUST like her!!! Just think of all the things you have survived in your life...this is not meant to just be endured...take a breather and then go give her a hug and ENJOY her! Love ya with all my heart!
After Andrew (quite the difficult toddler), I was given Noah (a pretty easy kid). So, perhaps you'll get an easy one next. I've learned that every kid is different, and there are no hard, fast rules. And it's too true that you just do what you have to do to survive; this is why I drink my Diet Coke. It's a sanity saver! Oh, and I DEFINITELY agree with the earlier comment about homework. It's the DEVIL!
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