The past few days have been bittersweet. We have known for a few months that we would be making out mecca back to Utah (the land of Zion) but people in Arizona, aside from those in our ward, had no idea. I went to work and lived life as "normal" as possible. Well, Friday, news busted out in the cubicles of Univ. of Phoenix. Now, if you have worked @ University of Phoenix, you know NOTHING is sacred. A simple, "I want to tell you something but you can't tell anyone!" usually means in five minutes the word has spread like wildfire. I told the team- I had to. I had never not wanted to look someone in the eye so badly in my life. I could see the look of abandonment, betrayal....I was heartbroken. I felt nothing more than the need to be brutally honest about my insecurities of being a stay @ home mom, my love for my job, the success I have felt not only as their manager but as an employee of UOP. It was tough. Today, I came back to a note on my desk from a guy telling me he will miss my smile. I have gotten emails asking my to stay. In no way am I being boastful. In fact, nothing but humility has come forth over the past few days. I have been so blessed to be surrounded by wonderful people. Diversity. Change. Success. All of it will shape who I am going to be when I raise my children. In nine days- NINE days, my title of "career woman" is gone. I have 2 more REAL paychecks- soon to be replaced with the hugs and kisses of a one year old.
Don't get me wrong- this post is in no way intended to downplay the greatness of being a mother. I know it is a thankless, difficult job. I am just super scared to take on that daunting task. Give me 12 employees that need motivation, uplift and direction and bingo- done. I know I will adjust. I know we will be ok. I know that Mark is going to be amazing.
I think I write this mainly to remember how I feel at this moment. It is total limbo. I hear the lightning outside my window on a 74 degree night in the middle of January in Arizona. I think of the snow and family in Utah. So torn but so ready! What an awesome journey and I am glad I got the ride! More to come....packing, moving, settling, tearful good byes....another chapter down!
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I understand how you feel. There are times when I think, "Will I ever have an adult conversation again? Will these little people ever appreciate what I do?" Then I see them accomplish something big and fantastic or hear the hilarious things they say, and I am so grateful that I am there to witness it. I can't imagine having to leave the people in Arizona that you have come to know and love, but we are THRILLED to have you back. We REALLY need a fun couple to hang out with, and you guys are the definition of coolness. Please call me and come hang out any time. I'm so glad that my closest cousin found one awesome gal!!
TISH!! Crazyness! Although I knew eventually you would make your way back to the mountains of Utah. Just can't stay that far from family! :) They just love ya and miss you too much I am sure. That is exciting though your gonna be a great stay at home Mom and rock it as always. It was awesome to know you Tish and we had some good times. I am sure your team is going to miss you tons too! Keep in touch! If I am ever in Utah I will have to look you up! haha remember we will always have chocolate..rain....hahaha :)Thanks for being a great person and friend! U da bomb!
I know you are going to miss your job and how scared you are to stay at home. But you are going to be great!!! You'll love being closer to family to hang out with them. And I will miss you dearly here. But this is a great thing for your family. And you always have a place to stay when you come to visit.
Wow! I had no idea Tisha! I'm happy for you!! Just know you will be missed over here!:) You are an amazing person and will make an amazing stay at home mom! Keep in touch girlie!:)
That seriously made me cry! I guess cause partially moving away from Arizona is still so fresh. It is hard! There is no doubt about it. And we have talked many a time. There are days you want to pull your hair out but what makes it possible to live through it are the little joys that come from being home that you would miss. Hanging out during the day with family or friends, taking on projects, which I know you both will have amazing projects in the works. And even though I did not have you leave me as a boss, I surely do know what it feels like to not see you. And I know what they are talking about. You are an amazing woman! Mark is an amazing husband and father! I wish your family the best and my thoughts are with you both as you start a new chapter in life. I love ya my "sister from another mister"!
Trust me...I know the reality of leaving one freaking-amazing world behind. California is always something I wish I could go back to, but know that it's not right for our fam at the present. And no matter how much fun I have now, nothing quite lives up to Cali (we were young, kidless, 20-somethings that lived in the entertainment hotspot of the world). Take it for what it's worth, and just enjoy it, knowing there'll always be a special place in your heart for AZ. It's better off for you, Mc, and Mark right now to be surrounded by family and friends, and to be at home with your babe. Don't worry, the rest of world will always remember the incredible working woman that lives inside Tisha Williamson.
I'm not goin your way! You're comin' mine! Have I ever told you that I admire you? I'm sure I have. I am jealous that you have spent a few years on your own, completely, on your own. Arizona made you and Mark closer cause you had to turn to each other instead of the people around you that you already knew! You made a life and memories in AZ and that's something I want to be able to do with Ty (not necessarily AZ but somewhere)! It's a blessing to do what you've done! But it will be a blessing to be back too! I think once it you're back, ya sure you will definitely miss AZ and all the memories you have but you'll be at peace because you know it's the right thing to do!
Love you sister! Glad you're coming home! I need ya!
It's really tough to go from a job you love (most days in my case) and you feel you are good at to staying at home with Mac N'Cheese, endless messes, and Elmo, but there are perks too. For one, you get to see your kids' milestones first-hand, and sometimes you help them get there. I also love that I am the one in control of my life (for the most part). If I want to wear sweatpants one day, there is nothing stopping me. If I want to get out with my kids, I can do it. If I want a relaxing day at home with the kids, I can do it. If I want to try a new recipe at 1 pm, I can do it. These are all little things that working didn't allow me to do. And plus, you'll be close to family, which is a plus. Good luck with the move; we look forward to you being here!
Memories of people and things will fade a little over time, but the joys and milestones of what you have accomplished never will. Your new journey awaits and your new life is waiting with open arms...always remember-you can do or be anything you want in life, all you have to do is work hard for it!!! Motherhood is really all it's cracked up to be! Trust me I know! Love ya, c u soon! oxoxoxo
I remember not being happy when our wards changed. But then came you. My dear, dear, wonderful friend. How I will miss you. You were such a blessing to me and my family. I love you sister friend.
Joanne
Wow. Sad day indeed. I'm so happy for you getting back to where your heart is and for being closer to family. I think it's poo that you're leaving UOP, but I think you're going to ROCK the whole "mom thing." Allyson has some funny stories of being a mom. Check 'em out and realize that nobody really has it all figured out anyway. =) Big hugs to you friend! I'll miss seeing you every now and again.
I am not gonna lie, it is a difficult transition but you will see the reward daily! There is only one place the Lord wants you to be, and on those days you would rather be anywhere else, He will help you through! I envy the time you have had living away from family, I think it makes you stronger as a couple and a family. I am however happy to see you back here! Good luck and hang in there!
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